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Just another part of farm life

The other morning our son was waking up (in our bed of course!) and his first question of the day was,

‘Harry is a baby?’ – ‘yes Harry is a baby’ – we have good friends with a nearly one year old Harry who C absolutely dotes on but that wasn’t the Harry he was talking about…

‘Harry is dead?’ ahhh ‘yes our Harry is dead.’

‘Roo is dead?’ – ‘yes Roo is dead’ and then he got up to watch cartoons.

These questions just come from nowhere. His big sister had mentioned Harry the other day at our local park where we donated a fundraising brick with all three of their names on it, but other than that we hadn’t been talking about our Harry. And Roo? Well he was an old much-loved farm dog who sadly passed away earlier this year.

Death is everywhere. Just yesterday my father in law had to shoot one of our younger dogs who had yet again been chasing the rams. Three had already been killed this year by the dogs and they are not cheap. My husband explained to me that FIL had chained him up in front of the other dogs and shot him, he was still lying there when he left work for the day. It sounds awful, it IS awful, I feel horrible for my FIL as I know it would not have been a nice job. But the farm is a business, our rams provide our income and the dogs I guess are workers, they need to listen and learn and this dog had continued repeating his mistakes.

My husband last night at tea explained to our daughter that this incident was the worst part of his day. I commented after his brief description to her of what had happened, that we don’t shoot humans.

We also had a pet lamb die recently and C continues to comment regularly ‘Lamby died 😦 ‘

Death tends to be a part of life for farm kids, in addition my children have experienced my grandparents, an aunt and their brothers passing. Fortunately as christians we can also talk to them about the promise of eternal life through Jesus, about heaven. I appreciate that my children are introduced to death early in their lives, that it is not taboo for them. Their comments and questions sure pull at the heart strings though.

 

GJ

 

ps Sorry to the animal lovers, I hope you don’t read into this post cruelty against animals, if you do I don’t think you understand the realitites of farming but I am more than happy to discuss further

pps At 29 death has been following me too closely recently, the anniversary of my friends death through cancer passed recently and I have again lost loved ones this year – is that what happens when we grow up?

pps I have had the time to write this post thanks to hubby driving past on a tractor and picking up C for a ride, both my children and I are so blessed to experience life on a farm

God bless

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My faith dilemna

Read a lovely poem today on Watch this Space by rwoz2. I hope he (she?) doesn’t mind if I quote a section of it here

He sees

Through our disguises
To where we are hiding
He hears
The cry of our hearts
Of our inmost deep sighing
He knows
Through and through
Inside we are dying

He cares, so…He seeks

He seeks
And will not stop
Having counted the cost
He sweeps
High and low
For the coin that was lost
He braves
The dark, tooth and claw
For the sheep tempest-tossed

He cares…”

RWOz2 https://wordpress.com/read/feeds/12320983/posts/985441430

But he doesn’t always succeed – THIS is the idea I am struggling with at the moment. I know God gave us free choice, but I can’t understand if the Holy Spirit is working on a person and God seeks all people and gives His Holy Spirit, then how do people choose to turn away from His grace?

I don’t understand how this can happen when he is all powerful and all merciful?!?

I have received eternal undeserved grace and boundless blessings. I feel compelled to share this but I know majority in today’s society arn’t seeking and certainly don’t like an out spoken evangelist. So I am a quiet christian, praying that people can see God at work in my life.

 My Friend who passed away last year knew about Jesus but as far as I know had not chosen to follow him.

I studied a few subjects at Australian Lutheran College while I was at university and discovered the concept of universal salvation, I love it but unfortunately Lutherans don’t believe it and while I havn’t got my head around it all, I guess I agree. Still I struggle.

Another blogger (whom unfortunately I’ve forgotten) wrote ‘God chooses us for the same reason he chooses anyone – because of his grace’

‘called,chosen and faithful followers’ Rev 17:4 – but why are we not all called?

 

Does anyone else struggle with this? Has anyone resolved this in their mind – please share!

 

P.s. I missed a week of blogging whilst on holidays – apologies. But in exciting news I did get my 50th follower in that time 🙂

P.P.S Was going to write about my holidays if you’re lucky you might get a taste of it next week, or something completely different, who knows!

 

 

 

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I don’t want to believe in Hell

I’ve found myself feeling very emotionally drained the last few days.

I met up with my lovely widow friend again (previous blog post God at Work). She asked me lots of questions about my life and shared about her husbands funeral and family (he had ELEVEN brothers!!). I had a good eye cleanse.

But I left feeling drained and head-achey. My week started nicely with lots of time set aside to work on an assignment, but then I was left with only two days for work and errands.

I was also sad – this lady and her husband are truly beautiful people but they are not believers (as far as I know). I know far too many beautiful people, caring and generous who according to my christian beliefs are destined for hell. I find this very hard to deal with. I guess it should move me to sharing my faith and I do try to do this, mostly by facebook.

But I’m tired, in fact I don’t even have the energy to finish this post other to say today I need to complete my uni readings and quizzes, pack, clean and go out for lunch with friends. THEN however I will be on holidays!! And I hope I will have time to rest, relax and refresh (blog!)-but with two kids who knows?! (especially with everyone seeming to come down with sniffles…)

 

Blessed Easter to You. I believe this weekend we celebrate the death and resurrection of God the Creator’s Son. Who was sent to earth and died for our sins, so that we may be forgiven and rest assured in the promise of eternal life.

 

 

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All you need is love

“All you need is love” – this was on a wedding invitation I received this year. I hated it, hugely cynical all I could think about was that this was a second marriage for both partners, and if all you need is love what happened in their first marriages? Didn’t they have any love for their first husband/wife? *

This weekend marriage was legalised for homosexual couples in all states of America. I do not rejoice in this news. I am a christian and I believe God created us man and woman for a purpose and I believe homosexuality is a sin.

The problem I face is that I am one of the biggest sinners out there, on par with all other sinners in this world. My reprieve is found in the cross, Jesus’ sacrificial death, His grace, which has forgiven me all my sins.

So when people say love is love is love I find it hard to disagree. How can I say the love I feel for my husband (mostly!) is more pure than a gay or lesbian couple feel for each other? I can’t. I don’t understand how God allows these feelings to occur, but I imagine it is the Devils work. (Which I realise is a hugely horrible thing to say about the love a person feels). I don’t believe a person chooses to have homosexual feelings but I do believe as a christian they have the choice whether or not to act on them. This is in the knowledge that I too know sinning is wrong yet I do it on a daily basis. No sin is worse than another sin but we can make choices to help us stay away from sin ie not living together before marriage.

So again I go back to the saying love is love is love and I’ll add except when its not. I sometimes see on facebook posts about how all children need is love and I disagree. Yes love is hugely hugely important but so too is food, shelter and security. And in the same way love is not enough in marriage, it is a commitment to work together even when love is not altogether present.

I do not wish to discriminate against LGBT communities. We all have our own choices in life to make. I support civil unions as I believe these couples deserve the same equal rights as married couples but I believe God ordained marriage as between a man and a woman and for that reason I do not support gay marriage.

These two articles express my opinions well   http://www.lca.org.au/statement-to-the-members-of-the-lca-on-marriage.html  and http://higherthings.org/myht/articles/life_issues/sky-is-falling-again?utm_content=buffer74da7&utm_medium=social&utm_source=facebook.com&utm_campaign=buffer