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Three Thoughts

My first personal memory of a community in mourning was when a woman was murdered from a previous workplace of mine. Even when you may not be closely associated with a person, the magnitude of the loss of their life can still floor you. I guess that is how it is for some people with celebrity deaths.

In recent times my local community has been struck by tragedy after tragedy after tragedy. As I watched footage tonight of six young pall bearers I reflected on the honour that no person wants but that I was so blessed to have for My Friend. Thought One.

Secondly I’ve finally had the ‘holiday’ experience I’ve been dreaming of this week – ending the day with episodes of Grey’s Anatomy. But (spoiler alert) I’m watching the episodes about Keppner and Avery’s baby and reflecting on the choice I was once given to terminate my pregnancy. Mostly I consider the blessing I had to continue to carry him in my womb, for which I will forever be grateful. Thought Two.

Today was about tax, work notes, Telstra and chores. Thought Three – I hate end of year time as part of my in-laws family business. I hate what I feel to be judgement and a complete misunderstanding of who I am and my values. But on the bright side hubby and I have been communicating well and that is something I wish I could hang onto for all time.

Any thoughts you care to get off you chest?

God bless

Farming · life · relationships · Uncategorized

The farmer takes a break?!

It’s Family Business Week (can I get a woop woop) and to celebrate it seems I’m going to do two farm related blogs in a row!

My Darling Hubby is crook, has been on and off for months but as a business owner, let alone a farmer it’s just not that easy to get time off, for holidays let alone to recover from illness. And now he’s getting very grumpy and to be quite frank, it’s affecting my quality of life. When he’s sick he stops communicating, it seems to take too much effort. I try to let him recover but I end up starting to feel lonely and I guess undesirable.

I always told DH to consider myself a city girl when we got married. Although I’d always lived in the country (except 6 years studying in the big smoke) and my grandparents were all primary producers, I knew I was pretty naive regarding farm life.

I don’t consider myself a farmer’s wife, instead I am simply married to a farmer. Not actively involved in the farm* but most definitely affected by it. Farm life has both its perks and challenges ( you don’t say :p ).

Both hubby and I are in desperate need of a break, he from work whereas for me it’s more to spend one on one time with him. We’ve tried a few times recently but father-in-law got injured and instead of getting time off hubby had to double his work load – or attempt to!

Then spraying needed to get done, and shearing got scheduled for the other week we had put forward…. He has had a bit of time off this week, one day after getting pigs onto a truck, another after doing a tank of spray and feeding the animals. Unfortunately this time has been dedicated to cleaning up for a party we’re hosting for our boarder.

It gets frustrating that DH and FIL can’t communicate to work this stuff out, its just simply not a priority but it should be, NEEDs to be. Thus it’s up to me to put my foot down, not fun when DH seems to hate anytime I try to question things/problem solve.

So firstly it’s a struggle to get the time off and then I’m scared our focuses will be incompatible. He’s looking to stop and do nothing whereas I’m just in need of some extra affection. Hopefully we can find an equal balance of the two – when, IF the time comes, please keep your fingers crossed for me!!

 

 

*After 7 years of marriage I am much more interested in becoming involved in the farm, learning ways I can help, maybe even taking over the books one day – but not catering for shearing can’t see me ever saying yes to that!!