I DO want to

I’ve had a serious case of the I DON’T WANT TO’s the last few days….

I don’t want to deal with my kids constant arguing

I don’t want to sit down and play with them so they are actually engaged in an activity instead of driving me mad

I don’t want to exercise

I don’t want to look up recipes in an attempt to get my family eating healthily

I don’t want to do anything so it’s easier just to go to bed. even though no amount of rest is ever enough to help me face the next day.

I was worried about my work day today, worried I wasn’t prepared. I had plenty of time before my first client though and by lunch I’d sent the email and made the call I’d been trying to put off in my head. That felt good.

But then my client after lunch didn’t go great, I felt like a fraud. And I’ve had that feeling before and with all this not wanting to do anything it has me scared.

I came home and slumped, thankfully here I am now writing a post. I’ve scraped myself up from the couch so that’s a promising start

My goals:

I want to play games with my kids

I want to stick to the spring challenge I’ve signed up for at the gym – I want to be accountable about my exercise

I want to find a way that works for me to provide healthy meals for both my family and myself

I want to study to increase my job options and confidence

I want to feel close to and supported by and supportive to my husband

and step by step I CAN achieve these goals, who’s with me?